life surprises me at times.

Just half an hour ago, my brother and me were sitting in the lounge, devouring the silence that usually accompanies us. When suddenly, he turned to me and goes, ' wanna play a game with me?'

hardly paying attention to him, eyes glued to the TV, i nodded.

I sensed him going inside his bedroom. Then heard footsteps a minute later.

He stood there for must have been a full minute. Then as if to register his existence, he uttered a 'well?'

Finally, looking up, i saw him holding a box. It was a set of fish-and-hooks. The fish are made to stand in a circular pod where they rotate and open up their mouth from time to time and you are supposed to fish them out. Rolling my eyes with difficulty, i took the green hook from the many he was offering. Then he turned on the rotor.

And to my surprise, i actually found myself laughing and enjoying the whole damned deal. I didn't know i was laughing until about 3 seconds late. Then i looked up thinking 'is this normal for me? should i continue playing and acting like i was a 2 year old?'. Just then i looked up at him, he had the biggest grin on his face. Larger than life. Better than what i have seen in ages. His whole face was flushing from the effort he was putting into making his hook land straight.He saw me staring at him and said

" you are going to stop playing? "

Shaking my head and Smiling to myself, i returned to the game.

I may not have said that to him, ever. And i know i never will be able to. I have never been able to say these three dreaded words to anyone. The void between us is just not possible for me to erase and he'll not be the one going through this here. But yes, i love you bruv. :] During this 15 minutes battle, i have realized that Every single thing that helps your face break into a smile actually means a lot to me.